I can feel my interest in the place drying up, which sucks because I love my horses and showing them and showing them off but it just feels like nothing is really going on here for me besides racing and I've even slowed down on that a bit since some days I just don't make it on and they're locked or filled before I can enter. And then I feel bad for not logging on because I know there's breedings to do and a couple new horses to show off and I have stuff to do that could be fun, but this place seems so inactive show-wise that champing a horse almost doesn't matter because you're going up against the same people and the same horses the whole way, and some disciplines are barely limping along. Even if I take time to get poses it's gonna be more than a month before the horse champs unless I pick something easy and fast like endurance. - End of melodramatic whining
I think I might do an MPA, and hopefully get some breedings done that have been in the works for months, if I can muster up the motivation before I disappear.
Today I decided to crack open my late to hatch chicks. 3 were dead as I thought, but the last one started kicking! As I tried to chip the egg away I nicked the membrane and made the baby bleed. I sat for four hours by the incubator moistening the membrane every couple of minutes. Finally I just knew the baby had passed but I just kept trying to somehow revive it.
It wasn't just a chicken...it was a small, beating life that I watch still and stop. I tried to play God and thinking I know all and I'm forever going to blame this baby on me. I am absolutely heartbroken. I just got out of my 2 hour shower and now I can't feel my legs lmao <\3
My sister has been driving us crazy bc she's been saying that she wants to try riding again, so today we all went up to the ranch and caught Buddy, Splash, and R2 to ride, buuut then Splash started acting up when we got out to where we wanted to go get on and she got scared as soon as she got up on him so she jumped off and my mom took him around the pasture and sure enough he was jiggy and doing his best impression of an anxious racehorse. We think he needs his teeth floated, but a different bit is also probably in order.
EVERYTHING FFS LOL okay not really but what the hell.
So the other day my friend possibly needed a webcam, and I have an ancientttt one that I ended up downloading and installing the drivers for. YESTERDAY, I go to remove the drivers because I already have a webcam; I restart and OH SHIT Windows exploded. I got an error message when the PC loaded, and NONE of my files were showing up; I tried restarting but ohhhh nooooo the computer wouldn't start period. I got home from work, took out the hard drive and spent hours transferring over what I could. I partition my hard drives so that a smaller section of it is ONLY Windows, while the other has my personal data. Personal data (and work!) salvaged! I go back with my boyfriend to fix it today and even with a repair, Windows gave me a big middle finger and refused to load. We FINALLY got it into Safe Mode after about 30+ minutes of finagling, and from there did a restore. HUZZAH, it worked --- ohhh not wait, I lost all of my files on C drive, fml :/ So now I have to find a program that can restore lost files and MAYBE get them back.
AND THEN. AND THEN, YOU GUYS, SERIOUSLY, AND THEN. As we're doing that, our phones start ringing off the damn table, so the boyfriend answers and it's a web client - someone had hacked into their site so it redirected to porn. Like hardcore full on no you're mommy and daddy aren't just "wrestling" kinda stuff. The hackers had managed to get into ALL of the database files to rewrite a number of them, and even added their php files because why the hell not. A call to the web host solved NOTHING, as they claimed they couldn't help us, but Google to the rescue, we found out a way to fix it, and I have spent the last 2+ hours doing that.
I'm so over all the things, I'm just gonna go get drunk and maybe fall into the street. #adulting
^Neco I may join you, my mum is an ungrateful cow, I spent hours trying to make sens out of their mess they call a workshop, and getting everythign sorted AGAIN (Not the first time) and woop mum comes in "You havn't done anything" FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. I think I have beer somewhere
This week has been dreadful. I know I posted about my baby chick dying before my eyes, but today just really pulled the last straw. I ordered eggs from a 'reputable' breeder and it was 11. 11 eggs. I checked them all for babies today because on day 10 you should be able to clearly see veins and a tiny body...4 of them had babies in them. Possibly less because I see blood rings but I'm hanging onto my hope. First of all, he shipped them to my door and shipping and handling causes the eggs to knock around. Mailmen also send packages through xrays. Everyone knows with common sense, if there's a live *embryo* you have to be careful. I've ordered many eggs online - I know what i'm doing. All have hatched successfully and arrived at the post office wrapped in every kind of protective thing you can think of. So now I have less then 4 babies who are still at very heavy risk of dying, and this man won't refund me my $50 because I didn't ask him specifically for a 'pick up at post office' sticker. I had opened up the infertile eggs and sent him a picture of every single one. Detached aircell do to rattling around, infertility in this egg it was never bred, and one egg had an actual baby less than halfway developed but had died pretty recently but very evidentially has sadly passed on and I could make a pretty good guess after all these other eggs that it was probably a transmittable bacteria from the rooster/hen that stumped the baby's blood/air/growth. I'm so sick to my stomach. All day I've taken so many showers (it's my habit when i'm upset. Feeling burning water and scrubbing somehow makes me think I can scrub away this feeling). An embryo or live animal should not be thrown around with carelessness and when it comes down to the nitty gritty: not for $50.
^ How sad! I only ever tried to hatch one egg and had no issues fortunately, except it hatched while I was out of town...We had chickens as pets and just collected the eggs for my mom, but my brother and I conspired to leave one egg because the hen actually WANTED to sit on it (the other two hens we had never had any interest in the eggs) and by the time my parents figured out that she was taking care of it, it would have broke our hearts if they took it away so they had to leave it. They were Bantams, not sure what kind.
Anyways, why I'm really here...
I feel like such a dinosaur omg. So I FINALLY decided that MAYBE I'd try twitter. As in, I'll make an account and use it like 3 times a year.
Except someone already has an account with my e-mail, and I'm not so old that alzheimer's is an issue so I know I didn't create it. So I send a reset password e-mail and change the password. I log in and it's some name with like chinese characters in it and I'm trying to change the username or display name or just delete the whole account (after adding my phone number like a ~real person) but every time I click anything I get "access denied" errors and I'm so mad right now it's almost hilarious.
ASPLUNDH, GRAAAAAAAAAH. First, story time, I live on a property with no trees, yesterday they blocked my drive way with no F*cking apology for HOURS. I had sh*t to do. TODAY, I leave my house, everything is normal, garage sales with mum, having a good time, come back to my TREELESS property to see hundreds of pounds of dead branches littering my yard in 100lb or more sections. I understand my city hired these people, but dumping all this dead wood in my yard pissed me the hell off.
I could call the city, but I'm giving them til the later afternoon to clear my property,
^I nosed around RKC and whiskerwick, I'll probably try to be more active on Whiskerwick too since RKC hasn't been my scene in years LOL. I'm mostly going to be trying to breathe some life into here and get back into PKC heavily since posing dogz takes like .2 seconds.
So today was payday, however the intuit payroll was down on Wed and my boss couldn't get our payroll up and processed in time for us to be paid today, so she had to cancel and write out checks for us all. Now that would be fine if my bank wasn't downstate (I live in the U.P. of Michigan and my bank is Chase which doesn't have a branch OR ATM anywhere near me) So I went to cash my check at Wal-Mart because I have my $338 car payment to make that's due on Sunday but Wal-Mart won't cash it because it was a hand written check. SO, I had to open a savings account at the bank inside Wal-mart, cash my check, load the funds onto my re-loadable Bluebird account, go to pay my car payment and it won't accept it because it's an American Express card and they only accept Visa and Mastercard. Go to the ATM take out $340 and buy a pre-paid Visa...car place won't take that either....now I'm on the verge of tears at this point because I can't be late on this payment or my loan will be default and I'll be out of a car and all the money I've been paying them. So I talk to my grandma and I gave her the card with the money on it and try to use her debit card and the darn place wouldn't take that either, so I had to input her bank routing and account number and have the car place take the money directly out of her bank. Keep in mind that this week has been HELL at work due to a ton of staff that are only working for the school year are now all leaving, and we don't have enough staff and therefore everyone is working too many hours. Our boss doesn't like to pay OT so we have to take obnoxious breaks and try to rearrange everything to make it work. Did I also mention that I worked a 12 hour shift in the baby room? Idk how many of you have kids, but imagine spending 12 straight hours- No break for me- with 8 babies...some of which are possible actual spawn of satan....not really but babies can be very fickle and sometimes they SCREAM for no reason...for a long time...and nothing consoles them. It can get very overwhelming. Plus we've got this world tour going on and I need to hex prizes and host shows and then judge shows at the end of the week and run races and open new shows and try to be alive...Next week won't be any better because we're loosing another staff and my director told me that I was definitely going over my hours, the only good thing about that is she said I could have OT, which I need to fix my brakes on my car, save for Summer fest and get an oil change. WHY IS LIFE SO HARD
Last Edit: May 13, 2016 21:26:17 GMT -5 by Daveena
Not so much TODAY but just this past week or so...
My mom told my brother and I on Mother's Day that she was leaving for 10 days on Thursday (so the 12th - 21st) and that one of us HAD to watch her dogs because she had nobody else. She has three "Yorkies" (they're inbred/backyard bred and basically only look slightly like Yorkies...) and they are all borderline feral because she puts them outside all day while she's at work and they do whatever they want, they're not crate trained or house trained so the last time I tried to keep them at my house the female pee'd on my hardwood floor and I didn't notice in time and that spot is now ruined. So they're not welcome at my house anymore and I've watched them a few times by staying at her place but never for more than 3-4 days.
I live over an hour away. I can't just move into her house for 10 days with only a few days notice so I said no, especially because my husband hates when I'm gone that long and he's leaving for a week from 17th to 24th so I NEED to be home on those days. My brother said no too, and she basically threw a fit like a toddler and threatened to just take them to the shelter so I talked to my husband and offered to watch them from the 12th - 17th but she'd have to find someone or somewhere (boarding) to handle it from the 17th until she got home. I even found a place that would do it for $85 a day for ALL THREE (good price) and that wasn't good enough. So then my brother caved and there was a plan that I'd take them to his house on my way home and he'd keep them til she came back.
THEN after we both agree to do this, she finally starts being nice (on Mother's Day!) and she gives me some makeup she doesn't want etc, and after an hour she's like 'oh by the way, _____ (son of her friend, that I've seen like twice in my life) is going to be in town and staying here for two days (15th & 16th) so you can just go home for those two days then come back.' And I said 'there's no way that's happening, it's not worth the trip and it's a hassle and I'd have to change the bedding TWICE, so nevermind I'm not going to watch them then.' To which she replied 'well, I'll talk to _____ (guy's mom, her friend) and tell her that he'll have to find somewhere else.'
So it's all fine and set, the first part of her trip is going to that guy's Graduation (he got a bachelor's degree from somewhere) and then she heads off to see my Grandma and Aunt. Then I get a text Sunday evening that _____ (stranger dude) is going to be there Monday afternoon (16th) and staying the night, but he'll be visiting friends so he might be in and out of the house and I won't see him much. UM WHAT?! This guy can't just use this place like a hotel, for one, but two, this was not the agreement. So I haven't talked to her since, I didn't even reply to the text. I just left her house Sunday night and gave her dogs to my brother early.
Then I get a phone call earlier today that I'm the alternate phone number on the microchip for _____ (one of her dogs) which has been found, and is now at the vet clinic. I'm not even speaking to my mom and somehow I end up having to deal with one of her dogs escaping from my brother's yard and go get it and take it back to his house.
But really, I'm just super disappointed that my mom is so...I don't even know. Right around this time last year, she convinced me to buy a more expensive wedding dress because she was paying for half of it. Then CONVENIENTLY a month later, she can't remember saying that and refuses to pay for half. So I'm just done with her. She only cares about herself and she cares more about what others think of her than what I think of her. She pretty much ruined my wedding because she wanted to make a feast at her house the night before, which she promised would be over by 8 so we could go set up the reception...We didn't even get to eat until right before 8, so they were closed by the time we loaded up the cars and drove there. She always acts so fake when other people are around and then turns into a psycho B when it's just me and/or my brother. I'M SO DONE and it's sad.
Kudos if anyone reads that but I really just needed to get it out somewhere...