Well, My dad ONCE AGAIN brought up that we should sell the motorcycle and buy his (pardon language) shitty van, on top of that the hospital processed our insurance wrong and now my husbands angry and going tro sell the bike despite my pleading I'm so done with my dysfunctional family ( this is also where i might go inactive again I can't handle anything right now)
No motivation to do anything, even the fun stuff. I think this has to do with some recent medication changes, but it hecka sux, and I don't see my dr. until next Tuesday. Hoping I don't waste my entire weekend.
I'm so done with TV, you guys, like seriously. All of the shows I like are either cancelled/soon to be cancelled, or they were AWESOME once and now the writing has gone to hell so they're completely unwatchable to me.
EXAMPLE: Grimm was totes awesome in Seasons 1 - 3, now Season 4 garbo and completely unbelievable the way that the characters are acting. Constantine, another AWESOME show I just discovered, might not even be renewed for a second season and the way it ended was a huge freaking cliffhanger. I mean, sure, I could read the comics but guys, Matt Ryan. MATT RYAN, U GUIZ. I heart him :c
If you can't tell I get invested in my TV shows D: It seems so petty to post but I work at home and I always have something on to watch while I'm working and it just ruins my flow if I'm getting pissed at the incompetence of the showrunners haha.
At least I have Vikings and Supernatural? (I hope!)
Neco, we watch the same shows! And Grimm is pissing me off too, except I've never liked Juliette at all and think he should've dumped her she should've been written off in season 1, or 2 at the least. This isn't supposed to be Supernatural's last season, I read somewhere that they're already signed for one more. Which is awesome because I love it but I keep thinking it's going to end because they can't last forever, and I really think that this season has been not so great either, it just doesn't feel the same watching it so I think the end is coming soon, maybe next season will be their last (sadness.)
Well, I was about to put some coconut oil on my face, and hair before my shower, and wouldn't you know that my bedroom is hot enough that to oil was in it's liquid form and given that I just woke up and wasn't paying attention, I opened it and it SPILLED EVERYWHERE....INSIDE my keyboard...all down my leg, all over my desk, all over the floor...practically the whole jar...it's not like it's $10 a jar or anything since it's the organic unrefined kind that is good for your bod/hair etc. Good thing I also have wood floors, so at the very least it'll condition the spot that was spilled on. ugh....I woke up in a great mood too :/
So I'm getting married in less than three months but I'm kind of unhappy about it. Like I want to get married but if I had my way we'd be doing it in like 2 weeks in someone's backyard with just close friends and family with some barbeque after or something. But somehow we're doing what he and my mom want, which is renting a fancy place and paying for fancy food, and I have a $500 dress! I know $500 isn't all that much for a wedding dress but, I was hoping for less than $200 lol.
I just didn't sign up for making my own centerpeices, printing my own invitations, creating my own save-the-dates, finding a cheap photographer (impossible!) finding someone to actually perform a ceremony not in a church/not based on religion, and a ton of other things. Like right now, I just wanna curl up in bed and never get out. Why is it my responsibility to create someone else's fantasy wedding when I'm the one getting married? I'm cool with compromise but really?
AND I need three bridesmaids because he asked three of his friends to be up with him without even consulting me and I really only have one female friend. So his cousin who's more like his sister is a second but...I don't have a third! So now my only choices are to ask the wives of his friends but I don't know them that well and we have mostly nothing in common. I mean they all have kids and do normal people things like barbeques with friends and I don't want kids and I'm a hermit so their pottery class get-togethers etc sound like torture and my only friends are guys...And none of my guys will be a bridesmaid, I asked lol.
This whole thing sucks and I have a feeling that my wedding day will probably not rank even close to the best day of my life.
I don't mind it so much when people say 'I'm keeping you in my prayers' in response to someone's misfortune, but when people say 'I'll pray for you' in response to me respectfully having an opinion that they then disagree with, I take it in the worst possible way. I'm like 'please don't.'
Also, not today, but yesterday I went to the DMV to get my learner's permit, but their computer wouldn't accept my ID card because I didn't have my birth certificate even though they have a microfilm copy and their system was supposed to be able to use the copy if you present them with a valid ID, sooo I didn't get to take the cool new permit test on touchscreen computers because just like pretty much everything else in my life I attract computer glitches like no one else.
My "Best Friend" is forever bailing on any plans I make with her. Tonight we were supposed to go to see Pitch Perfect 2 and I called her twice, got the voicemail. Facebook messaged her a ton of times and still haven't gotten any replies. We were supposed to go to Applebee's for half off apps and I was going to buy for her, but now she's outta luck. I'm getting Applebee's by myself and I will never make plans with her again. It's seriously the same thing every time! "Oh I was asleep" Or "I texted you back in my head but not for real" like done. over it. I'm tired of being let down and feeling like I don't have any real friends. I'm tired of being the ONLY ONE who tries to make plans. I took her out for her birthday and bought her dinner last year and she didn't do a damn thing for me for my birthday, which is only three months after hers. It's been like this forever and I'm seriously so tired of trying. I didn't do anything for her birthday this year since she refuses to reciprocate and I'm not expecting anything from her anymore.
Last Edit: May 15, 2015 18:27:10 GMT -5 by Daveena
^^ im sorry for that, it sounds like that would have been a fun night! i know how you feel there, my best friends since 10 years old has a family now and we both moved to different states seems most friends ships start to fade
iv just been feeling sick to my tummy lately, my thing that makes me feel sad seems so small now lol
My life is going downhill fassst! I finally got my own car, and my mom and dad (divorced) have been fighting over who is paying what. I'm stuck in between, with no job. Not that I haven't tried getting one, mind you. No one has been able to take me to my college to sign up for classes and take admission tests, so I don't know what I'm going to do. If I could, I would move far far faaaaar away in a little tiny rent home with my boy and nothing else and work towards college and payments. My mom is emotionally abusing me 90 percent of the time, my dad too far away for me to move. It's really easy to fall into depression over here, what with no where to run.
I can either go live with my dad and have college, a roof over my head, food, all payed for, or I can stay with my mom and sort through everything in mud and murky waters. The right choice is obvious to me as it is to you, but I have one problem. I don't want to leave the love of my life.
Not that my house is horrible all around, my friend moved in with us because we picked her up off the streets and she is always there to cheer me up and make me smile. She doesn't have family anymore. She doesn't have a car or job, but somehow she's working things out herself. Maybe I just need to follow her example? I don't know... So stressed atm.